Dinner Time

OK, so I decided to eat whatever I want for dinner tonight. I'm going with the plan of eating one meal a week of anything that I want it to be. So tonight I plan to eat whatever I want. hopefully tomorrow I will realize how bad it is and recover by eating well. I ordered pizza and will probably have some of my apple pie that I made yesterday. I've eaten healthy though all day, so hopefully tonight will be OK. I've drank a good amount of water today too. I plan to go to the gym in the morning. That's all for now.

Day 5

Good morning. Today I already drank one bottle of water. I am taking a break from the gym today. I would like to allow my body to rest. Tomorrow I will try to go, if I can make it there early enough before we have to be somewhere at 10:15...we shall see. Last night I ended up eating over 1800 calories! I don't know what came over me. Oh well. I don't feel awful, so that's good. I just really hope that I don't gain too much weight from the pregnancy, as I've already said a zillion times. I'm feeling a bit tired today. I didn't sleep very well last night. I think I drank so much water that I literally would go to the bathroom, lay down 5 minutes later have to get up to go to the bathroom again, I did this several times, oh so fun! I'm trying to figure out what to do this morning since we're not going to the gym. the house has already gotten messy from my cleaning it up the other day. I get so worn out from i getting messy so soon after I pick up. I should probably do some laundry this morning. I did the boys clothes yesterday, and my clothes really need to be washed! I suppose that's all for now. Wish Luke was around! I miss him immensely!!

Wow :)

I ate the most today that I've eaten this week. A total of 1576 calories. I hope that it doesn't make me gain a lot of weight since I ate more today. I certainly feel huge right now. Being pregnant magnifies my stomach when I've eaten. So, it feels like I'm really big. I guess I am, cause I am pregnant. I still don't quite look pregnant yet though. So, that kind of bother's me. I hate this phase where you just look like you have all this fat around your stomach, but you're actually pregnant, but no one can tell. I'm looking forward to when people can actually tell that I'm pregnant. I also hope that I don't gain too much weight at all! I'm nervous that all my healthy eating this week isn't even working, especially since I ate more today than I have all week. It was all mostly healthy food though. I guess I should just keep exercising and try hard not to obsess over if I ate too much or not. Since I am eating healthy, then it should be OK, right???? I suppose that's the end of my post, but not the end of my worry.

bloated again

why do i keep doing this to myself? What exactly is causing me to feel so bloated and stuffed? Is it too much fiber? Too much salt? maybe both. it certainly makes me look way more pregnant than I really am. anyway, i've drank around 6 bottles of water. I've had close to 1200 calories so far today. Although once again I feel like I've eaten waaaay more. that's where i'm at for now. Just glad I've been able to exercise again lately. It has been sooooo nice!

Mid day post

so far pretty good today. I'm feeling a bit tired, just overall with moving my body around. It feels quite big to move around. I'm only 17 weeks and already feeling quite big, so I suppose I'll feel ginormous by the end of the pregnancy. I have drank 4 bottles of water so far today :) :) :) I have had nearly 900 calories already today. I don't know what came over me, I just all of sudden decided to pig out. I still can eat up to 700 more calories today if I want to, so I'm not worried :) Well I think I'm gonna try to take my kids to the store, to buy them a movie. Hopefully we will get out of the store with just that, a movie, and nothing else!! Luke will be home in 15 days or less!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't WAIT!!! It's seriously taking waaaaaay too long!!!

4th Day

Today is the start of day 4. I weighed myself again. 143.4 I probably shouldn't weigh myself everyday, but I can't resist in the morning. I think though it would be better if I weighed myself once a week instead. My legs are fairly sore from doing lunges and other leg weights yesterday. I still need to come up with a routine though for my whole body with weights. We're heading to the gym in a few minutes. I need to stretch some. I think I might go look online to see if I can find and weight lifting routine for pregnant women. I drank my first bottle of water too already. I will be back on later :)

End of the day

So, I think I ended up drinking around 5 bottles of water today. Again, my stomach is feeling quite bloated. It's odd because supposedly I've only had 1176 calories today, but I honestly cannot eat more because I feel so bloated and gassy. I got to exercise today, I love it! I'm hoping to keep up with this!! Luke gets home so soon, but it's taking forever to get here!!! I wonder if I will look halfway decent by the time he gets here. I'm guessing there's not enough time to look really good, but we shall see.

well I guess that's about all for now. I wonder if my belly will ever recover from feeling super gassy and bloated and if I'll feel hungry at all?

mid afternoon post

So far things are going well today. I did my exercise this morning. I have had 4 bottles of water already. I've eaten 600 calories so far today. I don't feel hungy. I do need to clean the whole house though! It is a complete mess!! I'm just trying to get the energy that I will need in order to get the house back in order! Hopefully I can keep losing weight :)!!!!!

3rd Day

Today is the start of a new day. It is the 3rd day of healthy living. Since I have been eating healthy and exercising, I have been getting better quality sleep. I still wake up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, but it seems that I feel more refreshed and ready to wake up in the morning, than I was feeling. It's great to not feel exhausted when getting up. I actually felt quite light headed for a moment this morning. I drank my bottle of water and had a piece of wheat toast. Hopefully this will allow me to have the energy and stamina I need to go work out, without passing out. I did weigh myself this morning, it said 143.6. It was nice to see a lower # then yesterday. I honestly did not feel like I weighed any less, but it certainly is great to have already gone down on the scale. I wonder if it would be bad if I tried to get back into the 130's. Would it be bad if I lost weight while pregnant, since I already weigh too much weight?! I'm not sure that it's even possible for me to lose weight. I am eating all healthy food, so it's not like I'm starving. I'm still eating, just healthy things. If I lose weight it will be great, I just hope that the Dr. will say it's OK. I suppose that's enough rambling for now. I shall be back on later to ramble some more.

Going To Bed

It's the end of the day. My total calorie intake was 1446. I'm feeling pretty good that I'm sticking with it. The hardest part for me though is waiting to see results. I sure hope I stick with healthy eating when Luke gets home. Also we are going on vacation after he gets home, which is always harder to remain healthy. I really hope that I keep the right mind frame when we travel to stick to healthy eating. If I keep it up for my whole pregnancy everything should be fine and after I have the baby, hopefully I will not have to work as hard as I otherwise would of. The bloated feeling finally went away. I still have some gas. I guess it's from the increase in fiber that I've been having today and yesterday. It's only been 2 days of healthy eating, but it feels like it's been forever!! Well I'm tired. I really miss having my husband here! It gets lonely and tiring not having him around. I better go to bed. I'm feeling a little bit hungry, so hopefully it won't interfere with me falling asleep! I will be off to the gym again in the morning. I've been loving going to the gym. It has been really nice for the kids and myself! I feel like a better mom since I can take them to the gym and drop them off. They really seem to enjoy having that to do during the day time. It helps break the day up for all of us. ok, I really should try to go to sleep. I will be back on tomorrow!

After Dinner

Just felt like posting. Supposedly I have eaten 1276 calories today. I feel like I have eaten waaaaay more though! I hope that I'm adding things accurately. I had some eggs, baked potato, salad, cottage cheese for dinner. I have drank 5 bottles of water so far today. I'm feeling HUGE right now. Feeling extremely bloated! Hopefully this water drinking and etc. will really start to show/pay off fairly quickly. I wonder when I will start to notice my body "looking" differently. Being pregnant it will be interesting to see if I can notice any changes in my appearance, other than the obvious belly growth. Hopefully this really bloated feeling will go away soon enough. I feel like I can hardly move.

Back from the gym

Just got back from the gym. I have drank 3 bottles of water so far today. Just need to drink 2-3 more bottles!! :)

I chowed down on food when I got home! I've had almost 500 calories so far today. I feel good though. Nice and full for now.

I've decided to start reading. I'm thinking this will help me from eating. I tend to eat out of boredom. I actually eat for a variety of reasons, but lately it seems to be boredom.

At the gym I ran 2 miles, and walked for a total of 30 minutes on the treadmill. Then I did the eliptical for 15 minutes. Then I did some arm weights. After that I decided to ride the bike slowly just to take up more time, so the kids could play longer in the kids area. They really like it there. It works out great for me! I rode the bike for 30 minutes. I'm feeling great mentally since I'm exercising again! I'm not too thrilled about my reflection in the mirror. I'm hoping though as I keep this up I will see more results and also just feel better overall!

That's all for now. I really need to go take a shower.

Weighed Myself

I weighed myself this morning. The "magic" number or depressing number, is 144.0. The good news is now I know where I am, and what I have to work with. If I can just keep from gaining much or nothing this month, that would be great!! I'm going to the gym in a few minutes. Drank my water for the morning. Yesterday I did in fact end the day well. I had aroun 1500 calories, so that's good. Today I plan to count my calories again. It's the only way that I can actually be healthy. If I don't keep track I eat too much. I definitely wasn't happy about seeing 144 on the scale. I am just going to work at keeping my weight there this month. That will be my goal. Not to gain any more weight.

Day 1 of healthy living

This morning I actually went to the gym. I am extremely happy that I did this! YAY! So far today I am eating healthy foods. It's strange because I'm not used to eating healthy in this way. Since I'm pregnant I have to eat more food than normal. It feels like a ton of food. At the same time, I hope that I don't fall off the band wagon! I have the ability to be tempted easily, so I need to really stay focuse. If I can just make it through the first day, then i will know that I can do it tomorrow and the next day! My goal is to not gain more than 2 pounds this month! Obviously being pregnant, I can't exactly hope to gain nothing, I don't think that would be realistic or fair to my mental well being. As long as I can keep my total weight gain to a minimum that would thrill me! So far according to the Dr.'s office I have gained 9 pounds. What they don't know is how much I weighed when I found out I was pregnant at home. I actually gained 10 pounds the week that I found out I was pregnant. That sounds really crazy, but it is true. Just imagine going from extreme healthy eating and running many, many miles per week, to doing zero exericse, and eating whatever I wanted!! Despite that i was throwing up, I still gained weight, simply because of the contrast in my lifestyle of exercise and eating.

Anyway, I didn't weigh myself this morning. I should do that tomorrow, so that I can have an idea of how I'm doing from week to week. As much as I dread stepping on the scale, I need to do it to get on track. If I keep putting it off until the end of my pregnancy, I will not slow my weight gain down and only have more work to do once I have the baby. The idea is to try and keep myself in fair enough shape that when I have the baby I will be able to get back into a routine easier than I otherwise would.

OK, well this is just a rambling entry about my day so far. it's 2 p.m. I have eaten 724 calories. It's odd because I'm aiming for 1600 calories per day, which seems like a lot compared to what my normal calorie counting diets are. I'm hoping though 1600 will be a max. It also will give me enough leverage so I won't feel deprived and then just go crazy with food.

enough rambling, so far so good. Just hope that I stay on board all day :)